I am alive…….
Rarely do I feel not to share my feelings with my blogger friends….
So here I’m again to let you know what was happening in my life….
Was busy dealing with my inner conflict…..
I see the existence of conflict as a positive sign. I believe that it presents an opportunity for me to move forward if only I’m willing to face it and deal with it effectively.
It was a conflict of acceptance….
Conflict of relations and friendships……
Its just that I don’t want to deal with people anymore…..
I just want to enjoy the silence of nature….
Want to be away from this artificial man made world
I have a feeling that I am a misfit in this world of cunning, opportunists and liars
In fact I am angry that why my parents made me kind hearted and God- fearing person?
In today’s world these old values look so out-dated and have lost their significance
Want to survive here ? Be ruthless,selfish and practical…
Am I searching something ? Yes, I am in search for truth….
This is something which I have never experienced before…..
Actually I am fun loving and honest in my relations, I value my friends….
People use to hurt me, cheat me, lied to me and I constantly moved ahead by forgetting things….
I was young, loved to make friends easily, trusted everyone and shared my fears….
That’s a different story that most of them were not interested in long-lasting friendship and they were there for some purpose….
The moment they got what they wanted from me they vanished into thin air…..
Over the years I have realized that my circle of friends has shrank and I don’t trust people easily.
Once bitten twice shy might have been the reason…..
I was fool ! Not that now I’m not… caution is the word I learnt later
For last many days I have been trying to figure out the truth…
I am in shedding mode…..I am shedding unwanted relations..
Friends who don’t bother about me
Irrelevant phone numbers whom I never gonna call because I haven’t receive any call from that number
I’m shedding the baggage which has become very heavy for me to lift
People who change color faster than chameleon will not have any space in my life
I am happy with less but loyal friends…..
Feel secure with whom I can trust…..
My sons and my husband are my world…..
My elder son had come to stay with me for some days in absence of his father. Tarun is away in deserts.
He left yesterday and I m feeling much better…..That was the reason I was not blogging since I didn’t want to sound depressed or low which actually I wasn’t……It was just I wanted to introspect for sometime that how I have to keep myself unaffected from what happens in relations and life.
I am glad that period is over now….
The-three- questions I wouldn’t like to answer:
- What would you chose, career or love? ( I chose love twenty years before)
- Where do you find yourself standing ten years from now?
- How important relations are for you in life?